loving a person is so easy.
missin a person it like takes ur life time.
forget a person it might took v long time to done it.
but y could dis get so easy for someone?!
n it can do such things for other parties.
hoping one day it will experience how dose it feel.
nth gonna change everything to undo.
so be it ba. god bless!!

ytd was my in camp trainin n outing.
kind of enjoy it wif my camp mates.
in the mornin we havin some meetin.
then afternoon we well to east coast part to hav our soccer inter intake competition.
ok.. we lost=) haha.. then in the evenin time we havin a BBQ at the chalet.
after we drive car around east coast area=)
k we was like nth to do la..
dunno where to go so juz go around east side area=)
then sent all my friends hm in the mornin.

started to fall sick alrdy!!
damn it.. havin sore throat right nw=(
nw i noe how gin feel when havin sore throat til vomit le.
slept the whole mornin til nw=)
tml gonna start work liao=(


how will u feel if u in my shoe??
it was a meaningful date on wednesday tt everyone shld treasure it..
it was 090909. in chinese is means forever..
i dun have e chance to full fill dis on e person tt i truly loved..
but hope everyone out there is full fillin their dreams nw..
hope tt dis path is e right one for u n
u will be e most happier person in dis world dan before..
u will i believe=) god bless my friends=)
it has been few mths.. n it still keep appearin in my mind=(
i really hope i can let it go.. but it juz cant stop my mind frm thinkin..
every moment i woke up frm my slp it will juz appear in my mind..
n even appearing in my dreams..
but i dun dare to think further more..
it really hurt mi very deep inside mi..
i dun really understand how dose this will happen in my life..
did i done anythin wrong tt i shld received this?
wat is a gd relationship are all abt?
do i hate anyone?
alot more question r still in my mind..
but in order to get everythin back to normel it seem like fat through for mi le..
juz hope it will be the best choice for this..
missed the pass!!!
finally!! i had passed my driving test tdy=)
haha..1st time take 1st time pass!!!
i get 16point =( is like damn lucky la..
once i reaches the CDC's office after my test road
i tot i sure fail alrdy=(
the tester damn unfriendly kind la..
done 4 mistake in total.
can say i damn lucky le. i hav no confidence at all=(

kind of down in the mornin.. but i hav to move on..
no one can really help mi but myself ba..
hope everythin gonna be find for mi back to normal..
one of my best friend gonna go army tml liao=)
time fly fast.. misses those days in sec sch!!
lest than 4mths to ORD=)
went to see a doctor in the mornin. haha.
manage to get 3 days MC=)
is a ankle's ligament injury.
gonna hav a long break this week=)
the whole day was stayin at hm slp n watch DVD=)
kind of slack.
was busy n tired last wk=(
had my semi-final match ytd, result lost 3-0.
n tdy is 3rd n 4th placing, result lost 3-1.
played damn lousy this 2 days.. n finally god lettin mi rest..
haha.. injured my ankle tdy.. n is gettin swollen=)
gonna tk MC for tml duty=) no choice cant even walk properly..

my life is gettin bored nowadays..
findin things to kp myself busy=)
4 more mths too 2010.. n 5 more mths to ORD=)
time fly fast, things changes fast too..
tryin to catch up wif it..
2 more weeks to car TP..
kind of broke alrdy..

finally, my grandma had discharge frm hospital!!! =)
gonna visit her soon..
kind of missed the pass..
everythin had changed alot becoz of mi..
it seem like it gettin worse then before..
wanna say sry.. but it seem like unforgiven..
if there's a chance i really hope i could done better
do take care of urself the one in my mind always!!
life r so short..
alot of things happen around the world..
ppl tt sick , ppl tt left us n ppl tt die..
life is juz so weak tt in any point of time ppl close
to u will juz leave u without sayin a words..
another week has gone.. kind of sian nowadays..
tryin to get use to it but still facin the same problem=(
my mind juz cant get away frm it..
kind of put in my whole heart in it alrdy..
dun think is easy for mi to let it go..
maybe is a best way to stay in the corner to miss n dream of it ba..
tml havin competition in the evenin..
hope it wont turn my day worse..
wish mi bast for luck=)
weekends went to play vball..
kind of tired n had blue black mark everywhere..haha..
was invited to joined some sporty uncle in vball mans open game this week..
lol.. my team name is M.M.C (mickey mouse club)
ok the team name is funny..

played 2 matches alrdy
n my performance is damn way nt up to standard la..
lost 1 match n win 1 match..
kind of pissed off wif myself..
everything seem like way out of my way..
i cant really play well or do anythin right..
my life jux sucks n bored right nw!!
cant get everythin right=( haiz..

really hope my next mth de driving partical test ( T.P) can pass!!
had speeded 1000plus alrdy=(
plannin to tk motor licence after i pass my car..
puttin 110 percent for a person is easy..
but is hard for u to stop all this in ur life!!
im no longer had a space in there or
either had a chance in my life anymore..
wat had i done wrong in my whole life
tt i shld get all this unwanted path right nw!!!

closing my eyes at nite is really killin myself.
where lots of stuff started to come across my mind..
its make mi feel im a big loser in my whole life..
i had lose confidence in myself..
everythin it juz happen for few mins
but it affected mi for life..
darkness arrived, brightness goes..
wat i had done is useless n meaningless.
heart is numb n heavy right nw..
everythin seem like normal for u..
u guys dun understand it til u really experience it in ur life..
is this life tt i shld be in?
im speakless in word!!




i noe that how i force things n it wont be hav anythin back le..
is been 3yrs n 7 mths for mi to be in there le..
nw is seem like it has been far a part frm mi le.
im tryin my best to get into but there's others..
im really badly hurt.. wat did i done tt i shld get all dis..
im disappointed is tt no one really fightin back for it..
at time ppl tent to done somethin wrong in life..
but as long as u noe e mistake le n
u willin to do watever to win e trust back tts gd alrdy..
but things has juz ended dis way.
i didnt really hate but is jux disappointed..
everyone has it own way ba..
hope things will change ba
get well soon!!
ok..went to kunling's bday wif hanliong juz nw..
kind of long didnt see them liao..
all like change alot..

i had lose weight alrdy=)!!! wooo!!
hope can lose my weight til 65kg=)
carrently is 75kg=) 10kg to go=))
was tryin to get a touch phone..
dunno to get samsung jet or samsung preston=(
still decidin..

ok..tml havin duty in the mornin..
so tired n slpy alrdy..
looking forward to monday to mit my best friend!!!=)
hope she is doin well nw!! tk care!!!
went to visit my grandma tdy..
she still in hosiptal=(
start to hav strenght le..
but still cant walk=(
hope she will recover n discharge soon..
get well soon ma ma!!

dunno y this few days started to eat so little til i cant believe it sia..
pass few days juz ate 1 or less then 1 meal onli..siao liao..
totally nt hungry at all..
goin to lost weight soon le=)
kind of fat nw..

this few days alot of things happen in my life..
i juz dun hav hate at all..
but juz down..hope u will pull mi up..
but i noe we cant force things de..
juz hope we wont avoid each other will do ba..
sry to make u in a difficult shoe this few days..
stay stress free alright!!!
hope to see u soon=)
got somethin to giv u..
tk care!!!
treasure all the things u havin nw
dan u regret once u lost somthin in ur life..
kind of down nowadays
i felt im a burden right nw.
i hav neglected someone in my life again n again!!
theres the same problem happen over n over again here..
i didnt really blamed anyone either..

hoping to ORD fast..i had started to slack alrdy!!
kind of no power to work or think anythin le..
6 to 7 more mths.. is kind of long!!!=(
hope everyone n the one i love the most in my heart is happy n hav a gd time nw..
tk care everyone!!!
There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of

Together all the while
You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time, time and time again
Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go[x4]
get well soon!!!i missed u!!!
had been wry for my grandma pass few days..she was hospitalize nw=(
my heart really hurts whenever i see her cry for pain la..
this is the 5th time she hospetalize le..
its make mi more n more wry for her..
ah ma u must faster recover!!!
currently hav to mood!!!tryin to make myself busy!!!
hope to see my ah ma smile again!!!!
less than 3 more weeks to my ORD IPPT=)
aim for GOLD=)dunno whether can make it or nt..
hopefully can..started to train a abit of my IPPT liao=)
greatest wry is my pull up n 2.4 run=)

this week is my 1 yr in ns liao=)lol..
finally!!!10 more mths to go!!!!!haha..
was plannin to join the FI(Fittness Instructor) course de..
but the dateline closed alrdy=(sian..cant get a chance=(
hope next time can ba..

had my 3rd drivin lesson tdy..
dunno y like tdy done quite badly sio..sian..
hope next week can done must better ba..
haiz..at time u didnt mean to do things tt way..
but happen tt there will be some misunderstanding goin on=(
time fly fast,thing seem to change.
nth will always be the same as it will.
tired days seem to add on everydays.
wat can ppl do to overcome all the probs.

1 mroe weeks to be my 1 yrs in ns alrdy!!
few more mths im goin to up rank soon..
tdy had my 2nd drivin practical lesson
started to drive on the road liao.
is damn fun la..but damn tired la..
i dun seem to be kan chiong when drivin la..haha..
this mth is a v bored n tiring mth for mi=(
wat to do..ns life=(
finally!!!! BTT n FTT had passed!!!=)
took 3 times on BTT n 2 times on FTT..
haha..nw lookin forward on TP liao..
was chiongin for my final theory pass few days..
was at BBDC the whole mornin for theory pactices tdy..
haha..i super kian su=)anyway hardwork = success!!!=)haha..

finally get the poly results le..

"Dear YEO HOE HUAT TONY ,

We are pleased to inform you that you have been offered [3 Yrs] NP - Electronic & Computer Engineering, N443 at Ngee Ann Polytechnic. An enrolment package will be mailed to you for you to indicate your course acceptance. "

haha..this mth like so happenin..wat i wan all get=)
hope can found a gd driving instructor=)
few days back i had a very big surprise frm my gf=)
she bought mi a ipod..startin i was like damn angry n surprice la..
coz is like too ex le..haiz..
i dun really hope she spent so much $$ on my present..
i was like dunno how to accept this present sia..
then we decided to like share this ipod tgt..
really damn touched tt she juz bought without thinkin la..
still can bluff mi say she wan..haha..i still believe sia..haha..
baby thks for this present!!!cya soon right!!!

ok..my ns life has touched 10mths plus liao..1 more yr to go=)
i had reapply my poly course again..hope can get it..